Okay, I had to break up the heavy vibes I left behind from yesterday's post...with this:
http://rpattzadventures.blogspot.com/
Just try not to laugh.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Ashamed
Since he was old enough to understand the concept, I have tried to teach Hoodie tolerance. When he gets upset with one of his friends and is ready to dissolve things, I tell him to put himself in that person's place and think about the reasons why he or she might be acting toward him a particular way.
I try to explain that even though certain family members drive us nuts all the time, underneath it all, they still love him very much and to remember that above all else.
This morning, I was a real asshat to him. He was being slow and we were running out of time for us to pick up his friends, get them to school and get myself to work and I blew a gasket.
I said a lot of stupid things and then tried to justify why I said them. In the end, it was all my fault that we were running out of time even though I was making him think it was all on him.
The cause of that time problem isn't difficult to figure out, it's something that can be changed to avoid any repeat situations. But the scars that I left on my son's psyche and in his heart from MY complete shittery....well, there is no justification for that.
I've apologized and told him how much I love him and he's told me that he's okay and that we're alright, but I just can't stop thinking about what my actions have done to him and the consequences they'll play in his future.
Why wasn't I able to think of that BEFORE I got mad? Why couldn't I get over my anger and keep the garbage from coming out before I had spewed it all over our relationship?
I was too angry to be tolerant this morning.
How can I expect my son to follow my advice toward his friends, when I cannot even lead by example?
I try to explain that even though certain family members drive us nuts all the time, underneath it all, they still love him very much and to remember that above all else.
This morning, I was a real asshat to him. He was being slow and we were running out of time for us to pick up his friends, get them to school and get myself to work and I blew a gasket.
I said a lot of stupid things and then tried to justify why I said them. In the end, it was all my fault that we were running out of time even though I was making him think it was all on him.
The cause of that time problem isn't difficult to figure out, it's something that can be changed to avoid any repeat situations. But the scars that I left on my son's psyche and in his heart from MY complete shittery....well, there is no justification for that.
I've apologized and told him how much I love him and he's told me that he's okay and that we're alright, but I just can't stop thinking about what my actions have done to him and the consequences they'll play in his future.
Why wasn't I able to think of that BEFORE I got mad? Why couldn't I get over my anger and keep the garbage from coming out before I had spewed it all over our relationship?
I was too angry to be tolerant this morning.
How can I expect my son to follow my advice toward his friends, when I cannot even lead by example?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
The Randomness Of Being Random
The collar on my J. Crew cardigan is coming unsewn!
Clouds and rain make me happier than sunshine.
Cooked vegetables always make me gassy.
I like Isaac Mizrahi by way of Target shoes.
Places like 99 Cent Stores and DollarTree compel me to overspend!
Hoodie has been in the worst mood lately....like constantly.
I've had "Turned To Stone" and "Strange Magic" by Electric Light Orchestra stuck in my head for days now.
I cancelled my MySpace page because it's really not for me.
I should have saved all of this for Twitter. Alas, I found I could not quit THAT so easily.
Zits near eyebrows and corners of the mouth are especially painful.
Your turn, tell me something COMPLETELY random!!
Clouds and rain make me happier than sunshine.
Cooked vegetables always make me gassy.
I like Isaac Mizrahi by way of Target shoes.
Places like 99 Cent Stores and DollarTree compel me to overspend!
Hoodie has been in the worst mood lately....like constantly.
I've had "Turned To Stone" and "Strange Magic" by Electric Light Orchestra stuck in my head for days now.
I cancelled my MySpace page because it's really not for me.
I should have saved all of this for Twitter. Alas, I found I could not quit THAT so easily.
Zits near eyebrows and corners of the mouth are especially painful.
Your turn, tell me something COMPLETELY random!!
Friday, February 13, 2009
Mortal Coil
I'm feeling very sheepish and sort of ashamed to admit something.
I just finished reading "Breaking Dawn" - the last book in the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer. I have also read part of "Midnight Sun" which is posted online somewhere. That's Edward's version of the first book, "Twilight."
I know a lot of older readers have already been - pardon the pun - sucked into this love story and I swore to myself and to Hoodie and to any other person within earshot, that I was not going to read any other part of this teenage-broodiness. I got enough out of reading "Midnight Sun" that I pretty much knew the plot, and I didn't feel like buying or waiting for the library to have the middle books.
Meyer is a good writer, she knows her craft. Despite this series being intended for the tween and teen set, it proves to be decent distraction for anyone really.
Okay, I feel much better now. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!
I have so much stuff to do this weekend, it's crazy! I need to get some work done that I've put off for far too long. Good thing most of my family members are under the weather - read: not up for doing much themselves. And it's supposed to be cold and rainy, which also means time for staying indoors.
I hope you all have a wonderful Valentine's Day!
I just finished reading "Breaking Dawn" - the last book in the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer. I have also read part of "Midnight Sun" which is posted online somewhere. That's Edward's version of the first book, "Twilight."
I know a lot of older readers have already been - pardon the pun - sucked into this love story and I swore to myself and to Hoodie and to any other person within earshot, that I was not going to read any other part of this teenage-broodiness. I got enough out of reading "Midnight Sun" that I pretty much knew the plot, and I didn't feel like buying or waiting for the library to have the middle books.
Meyer is a good writer, she knows her craft. Despite this series being intended for the tween and teen set, it proves to be decent distraction for anyone really.
Okay, I feel much better now. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!
I have so much stuff to do this weekend, it's crazy! I need to get some work done that I've put off for far too long. Good thing most of my family members are under the weather - read: not up for doing much themselves. And it's supposed to be cold and rainy, which also means time for staying indoors.
I hope you all have a wonderful Valentine's Day!
Friday, February 6, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Tuesday, Tuesday
Here's a list, see if you can guess the theme:
1. I'm doing my best to blog regularly, and not slip back into the comfortable "better blog reader than writer" mode.
2. My clothes are woefully tight and I skipped bread with dinner last night.
3. Hoodie is 16 today and Mother Nature thought it would be great FUN to give MY body a present, if you know what I mean.
4. There are like 4 family birthdays this month and I hope to hand over more than a cute but empty card.
5. People I care for had some heartbreaking news recently and I've been leaning heavily on faith to understand why.
Life certainly can by TRYING, can't it?
1. I'm doing my best to blog regularly, and not slip back into the comfortable "better blog reader than writer" mode.
2. My clothes are woefully tight and I skipped bread with dinner last night.
3. Hoodie is 16 today and Mother Nature thought it would be great FUN to give MY body a present, if you know what I mean.
4. There are like 4 family birthdays this month and I hope to hand over more than a cute but empty card.
5. People I care for had some heartbreaking news recently and I've been leaning heavily on faith to understand why.
Life certainly can by TRYING, can't it?
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